Jazzanova - Little Bird (ft. Jose James)

while listening to Jose James sing "little bird"

in these times, i have God
He is my hope and love
music is a moment's refuge
i know that time will do its duty
yesterdays are merely early morning dew
insomuch i hold on.
i fear the freedom of forgetfulness;
past loves ring me
recalling brief moments of profundity
i am numb.
the spark eludes my lips
i try self talk
saying its is good, try harder
i cant fool me
the question resounds in my waiting ears
why are u
why aren't u
i thought i heard
you must want to b
u don't want
u think u
i cant answer questions that to me clearly have no answer
simplicity has never been my forte
i have no hiding place
even with the music.
my God hears all
sees all
knows all
and with that knowledge fear should have no home here
and yet there is a yearning
human,
not spiritual
primal
saved yet seeking
always teetering on the razor's edge
metaphorically
literally
soberly.
a million tears
stars
prayers
smiles
and that is where it begins and ends
sadness
lowliness
silence
is my constant prelude
to joy

Insomnia. Jack. & coke.

eyez wide shut heart closed
stomping holes into her heart
love ain't the issue