dedicationorwhatever...completed

to jermaine thank you for kissing me in the cloak room, i felt pretty that day
to adarryl u were my friend first and boyfriend when i was ready. thank u for letting me go when it was time
to torrance for telling me i was beautiful...summer after summer
to avery for saving a seat for me everyday
to luke for being the first and not breaking my heart
to ramera for showing one type of man i should never be with
to broderick for loving me so well and so sincerely. i'm sorry for hurting u.
to zaire for holding me when i need to be held
to brian for teaching me the game, even though i refused to play. you are forever in my prayers
to kelvin for making me laugh even when i wanted to cry
to nick for broadening my horizons
to stanley for startling me into the realization that my self esteem had nothing to do with him



to courtney for making me realize that if you cant love me, as is, you aren't worthy of my love to marcus for teaching me the difference between a man and boy( u were the latter) to dwayne for that NYE in Atlanta... to ram for being a friend and helping me to grow emotionally, because i had to (pain grows you up quick) to three i wont name, for bringing me back to reality to quinn for breaking my heart into a million pieces to my Father in heaven for giving me the patience to wait for someone other than any of the aforementioned, SELAH

over. past. done. now.

waiting for some old ex has-been loved-him to come back over. past. done. expecting understanding of the little hurt girl that is fighting her way into adulthood from within over. past. done. saying this will be the year everything will change over. past. done. wishing that i was someone/somewhere else over. past. done. thinking that she must be better than I over. past. done. believing that I am not sustainable/responsible/dependable over. past. done. trusting the wrong people/advice over. past. done. following blindly what was once right/real/relevant over. past. done. seeking the approval of everyone but myself over. past. done. hoping that those i love will understand the disease ravaging me so that im cutting this shit short i'm good now not as broken now living now here now beautiful now living with purpose now having faith in God's will now intelligent.intuitive now searching for truth now letting my swollen fingers rest now..