over. past. done. now.

waiting for some old ex has-been loved-him to come back over. past. done. expecting understanding of the little hurt girl that is fighting her way into adulthood from within over. past. done. saying this will be the year everything will change over. past. done. wishing that i was someone/somewhere else over. past. done. thinking that she must be better than I over. past. done. believing that I am not sustainable/responsible/dependable over. past. done. trusting the wrong people/advice over. past. done. following blindly what was once right/real/relevant over. past. done. seeking the approval of everyone but myself over. past. done. hoping that those i love will understand the disease ravaging me so that im cutting this shit short i'm good now not as broken now living now here now beautiful now living with purpose now having faith in God's will now intelligent.intuitive now searching for truth now letting my swollen fingers rest now..